my computer crashed at work today while i was gone at school. i haven't seen it yet, because i refused to go back to work after school because i was too scared of what is waiting for me. but one our other legal assistant who we just recently hired called me this morning, and first thing he said to me was, "you should be sitting down for this..."
that is never a good way to start a phone call.
then he told me that he was printing something from my computer (because it's the only one in our office hooked up to the color printer), and in the middle of it, it just froze up, crashed, and when it rebooted, everything was gone. every document. every piece of software. it was like it was a brand new computer. hard drive completely wiped clean.
this means a lot of bad things basically. but i'm crossing my fingers, praying hard (please also pray for me) and calling a smart IT guy tomorrow, in hopes that we can recover something, anything.
and yes, you're all asking yourself, don't you have a backup you dummy? well, yes and no. i have all of our client files (which is the bulk of our materials) on our network server, and also on a backup server. but my personal computer's hard drive? why would i ever think to be worried about that? oh wait...dummy. all of our accounting, billing, etc. is on MY computer. dumb. dumb. dumb.
but, in good faith, i'm still crossing my fingers and praying that my most recent backup was recent enough that not too much damage will be done.
wanna know what makes it all even worse though? this past monday night, after a busy weekend of church stuff/ward conference, stake relief society meetings and visits, and a full day of classes...monday night i'm sitting in my office working, and i get the very clear distinct thought, "beth, you should look into some sort of online data backup services in case your systems at work ever crashed." i had the though once and only once, but with great clarity. it didn't feel like a warning, and thus i didn't think too much of it. it was one of those things that i would "get to later" or even just next week when I'm back in the office full-time. should've listened. won't ignore that type of thought again.
pray for me. thanks.
the end.
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Sunday, June 12, 2011
amazing week. amazingly exhausted.
this will be short and sweet, but I'll write more later tonight probably.
floral design school = a dream come true. i'm loving every second of it. once i figure out how to get my pictures off my phone i will post them from this past week.
working early mornings, school all day, and working late nights, while trying to squish in everything else in life is making me completely and utterly exhausted. but in a good way.
today is ward conference. and i have to go to meetings early.
the end.
floral design school = a dream come true. i'm loving every second of it. once i figure out how to get my pictures off my phone i will post them from this past week.
working early mornings, school all day, and working late nights, while trying to squish in everything else in life is making me completely and utterly exhausted. but in a good way.
today is ward conference. and i have to go to meetings early.
the end.
Sunday, June 5, 2011
tomorrow it begins
the next chapter...or at least a piece of it.
so. freaking. stoked.
there are few words to describe how excited I am about it.
tomorrow. southern california school of floral design.
the end.
oh wait, and today was literally an amazing sabbath day. we had to bring extra chairs into the relief society room because we had too many people, and not enough chairs...that NEVER happens. let alone on a fast sunday when everyone ditches out cuz they're starving. and again, fast sunday when we're split and usually have like 10 people.
and lots of people told me i looked really pretty, which made me feel really great. I haven't gotten that in a while. it was super nice.
and there is hardly anything better than being able to recognize and feel what it feels like to be an instrument in god's hands, to accomplish something for him. the knowledge that he literally puts words into my mouth that are not my own, or influences me to actions that i would otherwise not do. so. stinking. amazing. i love it. i love the spirit. i love my calling. i love the restored gospel. i love truth.
i love my savior jesus christ. and i love having a personal, real relationship with him and with god.
the end for reals this time. :)
Happy Sabbath!
so. freaking. stoked.
there are few words to describe how excited I am about it.
tomorrow. southern california school of floral design.
the end.
oh wait, and today was literally an amazing sabbath day. we had to bring extra chairs into the relief society room because we had too many people, and not enough chairs...that NEVER happens. let alone on a fast sunday when everyone ditches out cuz they're starving. and again, fast sunday when we're split and usually have like 10 people.
and lots of people told me i looked really pretty, which made me feel really great. I haven't gotten that in a while. it was super nice.
and there is hardly anything better than being able to recognize and feel what it feels like to be an instrument in god's hands, to accomplish something for him. the knowledge that he literally puts words into my mouth that are not my own, or influences me to actions that i would otherwise not do. so. stinking. amazing. i love it. i love the spirit. i love my calling. i love the restored gospel. i love truth.
i love my savior jesus christ. and i love having a personal, real relationship with him and with god.
the end for reals this time. :)
Happy Sabbath!
Thursday, June 2, 2011
all-time best motivation
wanna know what I recently discovered...the best motivation for getting fit, skinny and looking hot?
the answer = online dating.
barf.
is it really that hard to find a guy between the ages for 25-35, who already has a college degree and is working (even if for minimum wage, because let's be honest, the economy blows, and it says worlds about a guy who is working, even if it may not be his dream job for the time being, but does it none the less), is not 5'4", divorced with 2 kids, or is checking out my profile and happens to be 67 years old?
I repeat - barf.
online dating = awkward desperation.
but then I hear all of these stories about many of my seemingly normal friends actually meeting great people and being in relationships...and how? they met online.... what I want to know is where they actually met online...am I looking at all the wrong lds online dating sites? there's only a handful...come one people. let me in on the secret.
on top of all that, how do you really even begin to try and wrap yourself up into a 200 word profile? I'm so much more than that, and I hate trying to sell myself....clearly that's maybe one of the reasons dating doesn't seem to go so well for me... I'm bad at marketing apparently.
so here goes...all my loyal, faithful readers....haha...like 3 of you....can you all do me a favor? if you had to describe me in an introductory paragraph that you would be posting about me on an online dating site....what would you say? either comment, or shoot me an email. I'd like to hear it, because I can't do it for myself. but I'd like to keep trying, by whatever means, to get myself out there, and not give up hope. ugh. I repeat again = barf. and again = online dating = awkward desperation.
and finally, one last repeat = best motivation for getting skinny and hot...online dating.
I hope you enjoyed this, and are laughing in your seat at me. because I actually am doing the same.
the answer = online dating.
barf.
is it really that hard to find a guy between the ages for 25-35, who already has a college degree and is working (even if for minimum wage, because let's be honest, the economy blows, and it says worlds about a guy who is working, even if it may not be his dream job for the time being, but does it none the less), is not 5'4", divorced with 2 kids, or is checking out my profile and happens to be 67 years old?
I repeat - barf.
online dating = awkward desperation.
but then I hear all of these stories about many of my seemingly normal friends actually meeting great people and being in relationships...and how? they met online.... what I want to know is where they actually met online...am I looking at all the wrong lds online dating sites? there's only a handful...come one people. let me in on the secret.
on top of all that, how do you really even begin to try and wrap yourself up into a 200 word profile? I'm so much more than that, and I hate trying to sell myself....clearly that's maybe one of the reasons dating doesn't seem to go so well for me... I'm bad at marketing apparently.
so here goes...all my loyal, faithful readers....haha...like 3 of you....can you all do me a favor? if you had to describe me in an introductory paragraph that you would be posting about me on an online dating site....what would you say? either comment, or shoot me an email. I'd like to hear it, because I can't do it for myself. but I'd like to keep trying, by whatever means, to get myself out there, and not give up hope. ugh. I repeat again = barf. and again = online dating = awkward desperation.
and finally, one last repeat = best motivation for getting skinny and hot...online dating.
I hope you enjoyed this, and are laughing in your seat at me. because I actually am doing the same.
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
amazing photography give away
hi faithful friends, my dearest friend and photographer extraordinaire is giving away a FREE, yes FREE, photoshoot. whether you're in Utah or California, you can win. Go check it out here:
http://definitionsofchelsie.blogspot.com/2011/05/im-giving-away.html
Chels is so talented. Secretly, I hope I win, and not you - but I promised I'd post. :)
Cheers everyone!
http://definitionsofchelsie.blogspot.com/2011/05/im-giving-away.html
Chels is so talented. Secretly, I hope I win, and not you - but I promised I'd post. :)
Cheers everyone!
Sunday, May 22, 2011
men
maybe I just need to move back to the baltics where I got hit on more in a single day than I have in the past year in california. i once had a man dump out his bottle of vodka on the street because I told him I wouldn't marry him if he drank. haha.
so over it right now.
that is all. back to the baltics I go...
so over it right now.
that is all. back to the baltics I go...
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Birthday Eve
So, when I have another birthday, it always causes a little bit of self introspection and reflection...what have I accomplish in the past year, where do I want to be a year from now. It's like New Year's only better...because I actually feel more of a push to progress and set goals as I AGE rather than just at the new year. I haven't spent a bunch of time working through all the things I'm going to say below, it's pretty spur of the moment to be honest, but it's good to get it on paper. Here goes, a few thoughts on the eve of my 26th birthday (yes, you read that correctly, 26! holy smokes!)
1) for some reason, 26 feels significantly older than turning 25 did. It's like the downhill slope to 30, late 20's instead of early 20's.....gross. weird. old, but not really.
2) I have been on this planet for more than a quarter of a century...and what have I accomplished in these past 26 years?
3) At 26, I am a curvy, voluptuous woman...but a little too curvy. I need to learn how to start taking care of myself again.
4) I would like to learn how to really do my makeup to look nice. I think I'm going to take myself to the MAC counter, or sephora, or clinique and have somebody teach me. It's about time.
5) I would like to actually date somebody this year. Like a full blown, serious relationship.
6) To start off, I would like to go on a date with Neal Mortensen. He is a babe. A studly new marine in my ward. Return missionary. Humble. Sincere. Funny. Chivalrous. Manly. Intelligent. And looks so hot in uniform. Yummy.
7) I am going to start running. It's a major goal for me right now. And my bestie Miriam is moving in with me for the next 2 months, and she is a big runner. She is going to help me. And Agne Kelermanaite is my inspiration, along with my favorite picture from my mission when I was skinny and looking oh so hot. I'm going to reprint it a bunch of times and plaster it all over the place as a reminder, positive affirmation, and motivator.
8) I want to learn how to sprint harder in fulfilling my calling with everything I have. It's overwhelming sometimes, but in the singles ward, callings usually don't last longer than a year or two. I can serve better. With more faith. With a more willing heart. Closer to the Spirit. More in line with God's will.
9) I want to learn to be more forgiving to myself for my own faults and weaknesses, and learn how to be more humble to rely on God to help me with them.
10) I will tell my family more frequently how much I love them and am grateful for them. The past couple of years we've had our fair share of challenges, and life is just hard sometimes, and sometimes people get all on edge and don't express the love that we should. So I would like to change that in my life.
11) I want to share the gospel with someone close to me and help them come home back to Christ.
12) I will finish floral design school and start freelance wedding floral design. It is one of my few passions, and it brings me a lot of joy, a great feeling of accomplishment and satisfaction seeing something beautiful that I have created that brings beauty and happiness to others too, even in a small way and for a short time.
13) I want to live my life for me and in line with God's will...and not for anybody else's expectations or desires.
14) I will read more books for fun, for me, for learning and enrichment and entertainment.
15) I will cook more this year. And learn to cook new exciting recipes, increase my skills, and expand my horizons for new foods and flavors, and not be so picky.
16) I will spend more time with little kids. I miss that sometimes. I'm ALWAYS around adults. And kids teach us how to be happy with who we are and with life. It always seems to make so much more sense around kids. Black and white. Clarity. Ya know?
17) I will learn to flirt with boys. I will practice and role play if I must. But if I must, I will go and go.
18) I will invest in my personal education, hobbies and pursuits to rediscover myself and things I love and appreciate, or things that I don't know yet that I love and appreciate but will come to.
19) I will not be afraid to express my feelings toward others and hold back like I so often have to "not ruin the friendship." Lame. Hasn't gotten me anywhere thus far and we're not friends anymore anyway.
20) I will continue to go on blind dates and setups.
21) I will branch out and go to activities with other singles wards here in California and meet new people every week.
22) I will walk on the beach at least twice a week...I should say every day, but I know realistically it won't happen yet.
23) I would like to have a summer "fling" (in mormon terms of course), which would then be ok if it turned into something more...but at least kiss a handsome man by the end of the summer.
24) I will attend one of my best friend's wedding in SLC, UT on July 29, 2011. What a lucky man this guy is to marry my friend.
25) I would like to take a spur of the moment road trip with a dear friend and just start driving one day.
26) Finally, I will continue to choose happiness this year.
HAPPY 26th BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!! Cuz I deserve it. Cuz I am one of the coolest, most beautiful, most wonderful people I know. Cheers to me! ;)
Love y'all!
1) for some reason, 26 feels significantly older than turning 25 did. It's like the downhill slope to 30, late 20's instead of early 20's.....gross. weird. old, but not really.
2) I have been on this planet for more than a quarter of a century...and what have I accomplished in these past 26 years?
3) At 26, I am a curvy, voluptuous woman...but a little too curvy. I need to learn how to start taking care of myself again.
4) I would like to learn how to really do my makeup to look nice. I think I'm going to take myself to the MAC counter, or sephora, or clinique and have somebody teach me. It's about time.
5) I would like to actually date somebody this year. Like a full blown, serious relationship.
6) To start off, I would like to go on a date with Neal Mortensen. He is a babe. A studly new marine in my ward. Return missionary. Humble. Sincere. Funny. Chivalrous. Manly. Intelligent. And looks so hot in uniform. Yummy.
7) I am going to start running. It's a major goal for me right now. And my bestie Miriam is moving in with me for the next 2 months, and she is a big runner. She is going to help me. And Agne Kelermanaite is my inspiration, along with my favorite picture from my mission when I was skinny and looking oh so hot. I'm going to reprint it a bunch of times and plaster it all over the place as a reminder, positive affirmation, and motivator.
8) I want to learn how to sprint harder in fulfilling my calling with everything I have. It's overwhelming sometimes, but in the singles ward, callings usually don't last longer than a year or two. I can serve better. With more faith. With a more willing heart. Closer to the Spirit. More in line with God's will.
9) I want to learn to be more forgiving to myself for my own faults and weaknesses, and learn how to be more humble to rely on God to help me with them.
10) I will tell my family more frequently how much I love them and am grateful for them. The past couple of years we've had our fair share of challenges, and life is just hard sometimes, and sometimes people get all on edge and don't express the love that we should. So I would like to change that in my life.
11) I want to share the gospel with someone close to me and help them come home back to Christ.
12) I will finish floral design school and start freelance wedding floral design. It is one of my few passions, and it brings me a lot of joy, a great feeling of accomplishment and satisfaction seeing something beautiful that I have created that brings beauty and happiness to others too, even in a small way and for a short time.
13) I want to live my life for me and in line with God's will...and not for anybody else's expectations or desires.
14) I will read more books for fun, for me, for learning and enrichment and entertainment.
15) I will cook more this year. And learn to cook new exciting recipes, increase my skills, and expand my horizons for new foods and flavors, and not be so picky.
16) I will spend more time with little kids. I miss that sometimes. I'm ALWAYS around adults. And kids teach us how to be happy with who we are and with life. It always seems to make so much more sense around kids. Black and white. Clarity. Ya know?
17) I will learn to flirt with boys. I will practice and role play if I must. But if I must, I will go and go.
18) I will invest in my personal education, hobbies and pursuits to rediscover myself and things I love and appreciate, or things that I don't know yet that I love and appreciate but will come to.
19) I will not be afraid to express my feelings toward others and hold back like I so often have to "not ruin the friendship." Lame. Hasn't gotten me anywhere thus far and we're not friends anymore anyway.
20) I will continue to go on blind dates and setups.
21) I will branch out and go to activities with other singles wards here in California and meet new people every week.
22) I will walk on the beach at least twice a week...I should say every day, but I know realistically it won't happen yet.
23) I would like to have a summer "fling" (in mormon terms of course), which would then be ok if it turned into something more...but at least kiss a handsome man by the end of the summer.
24) I will attend one of my best friend's wedding in SLC, UT on July 29, 2011. What a lucky man this guy is to marry my friend.
25) I would like to take a spur of the moment road trip with a dear friend and just start driving one day.
26) Finally, I will continue to choose happiness this year.
HAPPY 26th BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!! Cuz I deserve it. Cuz I am one of the coolest, most beautiful, most wonderful people I know. Cheers to me! ;)
Love y'all!
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